Soul Searchin’ (Plagiarism)…

Ive been down this road walkin’ the line that’s painted by pride and I have made mistakes in my life that I just cant hide. I believe I am ready for what love has to bring, got myself together, now Im ready to sing.

Ive been searchin my soul tonight, I know there’s so much more to life. Now I know I can shine a light to find my way back home.

One by one, the chains around me unwind, every day now I feel that I can leave those years behind.
Oh Ive been thinking of you for a long time, theres a side of my life where Ive been blind and so…

Ive been searchin my soul tonight, I know there’s so much more to life. Now I know I can shine a light, everything gonna be alright. Ive been searchin my soul tonight, dont wanna be alone in life, now I know I can shine a light to find my way back home.

Baby I’ve been holding back now my whole life and Ive decided to move on now, gonna leave all my worries behind.

Oh I belive I am ready for what love has to give. Got myself together now I’m ready to live

Ive been searchin my soul tonight, I know there’s so much more to life,now I know I can shine a light, everything gonna be alright.
Ive been searchin my soul tonight, dont wanna be alone in my life, now I know I can shine a light to find my way back home

I need an extra boost of “I-belive-you-can-do-it” pyschology medicine

*sigh* and another *sigh*

Im over reacting about things. I know I can do this, I just need to believe in me.

But seriously, its much easier to believe in you if someone does. I think I just need those “kaya mo yan” from my friends, “agyu mu yan” from my close friends, oh I do miss them and “sus, kaw pa anak, kayang kaya mo yan” from my Father and “agyu mu yan nak” from my mom…

*sigh* its not bad to cry once in a while right? ‘coz i think I need one now…

Here its comes…

少し幸福(こうふく)

Just when I thought I’d be inspiration-less for the rest of my stay here in Japan came a sudden inspiration in the form of a 元かれ*ahem *ahem *ahem, for those of you who can read and understand what it means just keep it to yourself,ayt? hehehe.
Oh yeah, but then I guess I was wrong, because just now, I saw something that tells me, ぜったいない. Stupid of me! Never mind the first two to three lines of this post, *erase*erase*erase, pretend you didn’t read it, and I’ll pretend I didn’t write anything,
It just tells me or rather shows how desperate I am to find that one thing, which I know I can’t.
Or how assuming I was that there is hope for me, with just a simple conversation *sigh.
Forget about the title either.
What can I say?
I’m just a stupid girl who always jumps to conclusions and is so ignorant and naive that I always end up getting more of everything than I could possibly handle, I want to be numb.
This post has gone way too wrong for something that started out as supposedly a cheerful post.
I’m sorry, I just didn’t saw it earlier, I should have seen it coming. I’m lost once again.
Staring… just staring in nothingness. Waiting… but I know there’s nothing to wait for…
Better sleep now.