Sa tingin mo, magkakaroon ba nang happy ending buhay mo?

I was caught by this last question in one of the many surveys in friendster.

Well, I wasn’t actually answering those questions but just reading some posted in bulletin.

And then, I felt an inspiration waved upon me.

I thought that, there’s more to life than what I was being worried about now, there’s more to life than actually brooding over work during weekend, worrying about things that you know you can finish in a flash. Even if you fail, its still not the end of the world. You can always pick up the pieces of your life and then start anew. I know it wont be easy, but I guess you can still manage to do so. Even if life drags you to the most unpleasant things, you should not lose hope that someday, your life will have a happy ending. I mean you cant just wait for a happy ending, you need to work for your happy ending.

As for me, I will always think that my life will have a happy ending. Soon….

I admit, endings are sad, but it also gave a refreshing feeling that finally, it was over. Finally, you are finished and all you need to think about was, you did your best in your stay here and you have no regrets.

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I had the strangest dream today, I dreamt that i was back in college but in a new school. I dreamt of being given an assignment on the first day of class and I saw myself just being cool about it. Isaw myself confident about finishing it and giving my professor a winning smile.

With that dream also I saw some fraternity fighting but I don’t know why, so what I did was to run and hide and surprised to find out that I was not the only one hiding.

I saw one of my ACTION batchmates in that dream, HS classmates and friends and some co-workers. I dont know why.  My batchmate was dancing but I was not so sure if he really is my batchmate.

Just weird.

Another one of those days…

Again, I find myself comforting someone, someone who I share the
same fate, same circumstances in this cruel life.
Again, I was the one who needs to be positive, who needs to be strong, because if
I would also succumbed to this despair, nothing will happen
We’ll both end up beaten, beaten by the hardships we are undergoing,
beaten by this emotion called loneliness, self-pity and surrender
We’ll both feel insignificant, self-esteems dropping ten feet below.

So, I did not cry, I did not allow myself to be taken by this damn feeling.
I tried my best to be cheerful, to think of happy thoughts, to sing even
though I’m out of tune.
Because that’s how life was supposed to be.
Because that’s how my life is supposed to be.
I try to numb everything, to the point that I cannot distinguish what I am feeling.
I’m a great pretender, yes I am. Sometimes I dont know who I am.
Being here robs me of my real self, being here makes me inhumane.
And so, I need to find myself. Because I am lost, so lost….

I can’t seem to find my way back. I don’t know where my goals are,I dunno what I am here for.
I don’t know what my reasons are of going here. I’m not me anymore.
I wish I can wake up one day and say “Welcome Home, I’m glad you are back, I missed you”

Chocolate cookies?

>Apple juice or orange juice?
–apple. An Apple a day keeps me falling asleep
>Are you a morning or night person?
–night
> Which do you prefer, sweet or salty foods?
–salty.
>Ninjas or pirates?
–pirates!
>Autobots or Decepticons?
–autobots
>What was your favorite childhood television program?
–hmmm… basta yung mga pareho nang genre nang Maskman payborit ko :p
>Are you a collector of anything?
–nope
>If you could be any animal, what would you be?
–ako ay magiging isang…. panda!:p
>What is usually your first thought when you wake up?
–anung oras na?!. shet late nko! hahaha!
>What do you usually think about right before falling asleep?
–sana di ako OT bukas.
>What’s your favorite color?
–green
>What’s your favorite animal?
–next question pls.
Ever been addicted to a video/computer game? Which one(s)?
–mario kart:p
Have any bad habits?
–yeah
Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy?
–magastos
List 3 of your best personality traits:
–its for you to find out
List 3 of your worst personality traits:
– magastos, magastos, magastos
Have any celebrity crushes?
–Tom Cruise!!! :p
List 1 thing you wish you could change about yourself:
–magastos
Any tattoos or piercings?
–hikaw sa ears
What personality traits do you look for in a partner?
–hmmm… someone who can bring out the best in me
What personality traits do you dislike in other people?
–someone who doesn’t know how to respect people
Are you mostly a clean or messy person?
–mostly both
Do you see yourself getting married in the next 5 years?
–nope, I can’t imagine
If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would you go?
–Italy
Name 1 regret you have:
– none
Name 1 thing you miss about being a kid:
–playing langit lupa, patintero, chinese garter
Name 1 thing you love about being an adult:
–wala, hahaha
What’s your favorite song of the moment?
–Restless
What’s your favorite song of all time?
–la ata
What’s your favorite thing to do on a Saturday night?
–badminton
What’s your favorite thing to do on a Sunday afternoon?
–eat all you can
Have any hidden talents?
–still hidden :p
What would be your dream job?
– loving my job is my dream job
Which would you rather have, 100 million dollars or true love?
–100 million dollars then travel around the world to find my true love;)
If you could have 3 wishes granted, what would they be?
–I wish all people three wishes:D
Ever wish you were born the opposite sex? If so, why?
–yep, kasi wish nga eh
Name 1 thing not many people know about you:
–nagpa tutor ako nung grade 1 kasi di ako marunong magbasa, lols!
If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to?
– something japanese :p
Do you believe in the afterlife?
–nope
On the topic of abortion, how do you feel about cookies?
– chocolate cookies?

Not knowing won’t hurt you…

Damn! It sure does!
And now my test activity was delayed because I don’t know I have to perform one.
*sigh*

Well anyway, I hope I can finish it by next week.

This net…

I was so high I did not recognize
The time that’s ticking by
The eyebags that shows in my eyes

(Sing the original lyrics til you get to the chorus part, hehehe, sorry na wala na maisip eh:p)

This net has taken its toll on me
I said stop now
But I wont stay away from it

Anu beee, this is sooo trying hard! lolz!
walang pakialamanan. high ako.
I think ha, dapat panggabi na lang job ko, kasi sa gabi ako gising,hahaha!
Sabi nga ni Vincent lagi akong tulog sa ofis, pero syempre di totoo yun, nagttrabaho ako!!!
Kahit sobrang antok na antok pa ‘ko, pinipilit kong gawin ang aking trabaho sa abot nang aking makakaya:D And I’m proud of that! I feel satisfied and fulfilled pag nagagawa ko ang mga to-do’s ko for the day with my colorful markings sa aking notebook.
Sumasaya ako pag nalalagyan ko nang X color red mark at black shade yung mga natapos ko for the day at nilalagyan nang X color red mark ang date sa calendar to signify the end of one day’s work.
Beat that! Can you? :p

Oops! Somethings wrong, in the upper floor, I hear heavy footsteps, kinda creepy*sigh
Im being paranoid again*sigh
Sometimes I wish I had a room mate…
Haaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Jaa, closing time, sleeping time
Pray hard, it works

I just realized…

Being unlucky doesn’t have to be that bad… Just when I thought I was the unluckiest person last week, I proved that I was wrong.
I got an injury on our supposedly Mt. Fuji hike, but later that night, I was surprised to find out that they cancelled the hike just because I cannot come.
Then I realized that I was not unlucky as I thought I was, I was indeed the luckiest person last week because of the people who I have right now.
They cancelled the trip because they all feel bad that I cannot make it.
I was touched, but I don’t know how to express how I felt…
I just want to thank them, really:D

Just how unlucky can you get?

Well, i wasn’t really expecting this, but here i am mending a sprained and wounded right foot.
Of all the days of the week,why should it be today? why should it happen NOW?? why do I have to be injured now, thursday? like duh, like its only one day before Mt. Fuji hike and i’ve been really excited about this and now I was not so sure and confident if I can still reach the top or worst go because of this injury.
What the FUDGE! what the FUDGE!

Mt. Fuji

Just to update my page…

I dont really like to write something about Mt. Fuji…

Instead I want to write about my everyday life’s challenges which compares to how hard it is to climb and  reach Fuji-san.

Have you ever realized how everyday of your life you need to deal with annoying people or annoying things, stuff which annoys you but in one way or another you are able to surpass it? Its amazing how you can end the day without losing your temper and without being fired from work because you aren’t able to  hold your temper and failed the challenge of working with annoying people/things/stuffs.  Unexplainable? I don’t think so…

Just to give you some tips on how I was able to not lose my temper, I do these things;

Top one on the list is…. tantaraaaaaaaaran!
1.) Chocolate+Coffe! = Happiness! Perfect combination:D
So when someone annoying tells you stuffs which are annoying, after hearing all the stupid things he/she said, continue eating your snickers chocolate bar and drinking your brewed coffee with cream, aaahhh refreshing! and pretend he did not say anything stupid (as if he can utter one good goddamn thing!).

Second top one (if Topest top one is not applicable, lolz, is there such word as “topest”?)
1.) hypothetical MURDER!
I’m telling you this is not illegal and you won’t be sentenced with reckless imprudence resulting to homicide or reckless impatience resulting to murder,lolz!
Top 5 hypothetical murder starts with
1.) Avada Kadavra! Oh rayt! Effortless and bloodless murder:p If you want a lists of Harry Potter
spells which you would like to use in place of aveda kadavra, please refer to link Alternative spell to use

2.) hypothetical of hypothetical murder #1

3.) hypothetical of hypothetical of hypothetical murder #2

4.) hypothetical of hypothetical of hypothetical of hypothetical murder #3

5.) hypothetical of hypothetical of hypothetical of hypothetical of hypothetical murder #4
bwahaha! Im not a murderer, it just your hypothesis:P

Third top one of top one of topest one, hahaha! di ko gets:P
1.) Be kind to animals )
Let him/her feel guilty about what he/she just said by being extra kind to him/her. Conscience kills! Effortless and bloodless again >:)

Fourth top one of top one of top one of topest one
1.) Talk about your hypothetical murder to someone over YM, this rocks! just like Fuji-san which is all rocks!!! This makes the hypothetical murder to be raised to the second power:D

Fifth top one of top one of top one of top one of topest one
1.) Blog it! wehehehe! Thunder only happens when its raining:p
Quoting Barney,”this is certainly going in my blog!” lolz